Somehow I knew from the beginning. I had a very strong impression even before I conceived that something was wrong with this baby. Because of this baby, my little family has come to a detour on our journey together and we are not retreating. I hope and pray we will become better people for it.
On Tuesday of last week I went to the doctor's office for a routine five month ultrasound. I went by myself. My doctor checked and measured baby's body parts. Everything was fine until he came to baby's head. For some reason, it just didn't look right to him. I was sent to a perinatologist who confirmed my doctor's suspicions. Everything was perfect about our baby's body from his toes to his nose. However, he suffers from a lethal condition called anencephaly. The crown of his head is malformed and is missing a life-sustaining brain. If he does make it to term he may be stillborn or he may live a few minutes or days.